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Sunday Morning Coffee

It’s one of those rare Sundays I don’t have to be at either job. It’s terrible outside, lots of wind and rain, in the upper 60’s. Dirty Dancing was on the TV until Β my husband woke up, to which I quickly changed the channel to Joe Dirt. I’m the kind of wife that doesn’t like torturing him with old chick flicks. Or new ones. Or anything remotely girly. Kiddo has been attached to his new train table all morning, and his new trains we bought yesterday with his Christmas money from Oma. The dog is doing some sort of downward dog move every few minutes because he needs to run outside but can’t because he’s a big sissy and doesn’t like rain. This is my Sunday morning.

My military adventure is at a stand still because we’re waiting on old records and ya know, the whole set of holidays that’s rolling through. I’m okay with that though. Come Jan 2nd though I’ll be all over it again in a fury, I’m sure. I’m still feeling confident about it, trying to stay positive in the face of the mountain of paperwork we have to either track down, or fill out. Did you know I don’t have a High School diploma? Yeah, didn’t know that. I know I was handed one on my graduation day. I know that because I was horrified that in my little graduating class of under 50 kids, I was in the background of almost every photo they took of each graduate because of my placement in the front row. Do I have a last name in the beginning of the alphabet? Nope. That’s just how my life is. So currently I’m tracking down a new copy of that thing, which apparently hasn’t been important since the day I received it. Go figure.

Working two jobs is still pretty interesting. I like both jobs for different reasons, though they both have their own set of downfalls, mainly the customers I work with at times. The more I work retail, the more I hate people. Just when I started to give humanity a second chance, boom, two retail jobs. Also, I think from here on out, I should be able to use “Can understand Southern folks saying their own email addresses” under job skills on future paperwork. It’s also kind of my favorite when big mean Marines have silly personal emails. Anyway, if working these jobs tells me anything, it’s that it’s not where my life should be. I don’t look forward to the hardships of being in the military alongside my husband, but the positive far outweighs the negative, one of the positives being I don’t need to work retail the rest of my life. Hopefully.

I have to keep reminding myself I’m not in yet. I have a very long road ahead of me. I have a lot of roadblocks to push out of the way. But having a plan for my life, other than loving my husband and son oodles, is pretty rewarding in itself. I have some sort of gypsy soul, so having a plan is a new thing for me. Someday I will live in Washington State, hopefully near Seattle. Someday I’ll be a nurse, hopefully in physical therapy or sports medicine, hopefully working with the Wounded Warriors. Someday I’ll get to see my best friend whenever I want, hopefully because we live in the same place again. Someday I’ll be in the military, doing what I’ve secretly wanted to do since High School. I have lots of Somedays, which sounds a little sad, but to me they’re just goals. I know my Somedays will happen, because it’s the type of person I am. My Somedays are a promise to myself that even if they don’t go according to plan, and I have to alter them a little bit, I’m going to try my hardest to get there. I’m okay with changes, but I still end up reaching my Somedays. I said someday I’d be married, with the greatest kid in the World, living an awesome life, in a cool old house, and guess what? Here I am. With a whole new set of Somedays.

Have a wonderful week.
Make a list of Somedays.

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I figured out a long time ago that I’m not a very good school student. If I’m not challenged and actually taught, I lose interest fairly easily. So when I entered into my Senior year of High School, at my “college prep” HS, I quickly realized things were probably going to go downhill. I had no real interest to go to college, which is problematic at the type of school I was attending. But I also had no idea what I wanted to do in place of college. I just kind of wanted to… be. And so I did. I bounced around a lot after graduating. Working odd jobs and varying between apartments and couch surfing. It wasn’t a complete waste of time, I had a lot of ups and downs, but eventually I had that faint feeling of want. I wanted to do a lot more with my life. Still not to the point I felt comfortable going to college, but I felt a calling. It landed me in the recruiters office for the United States Marine Corps. My family was on board for the most part, wary, but on board. While waiting for two waivers I needed in order to join, we found out I was pregnant.

Flash forward through five years of happy motherhood and homemaking, I am feeling confident. My husband and I casually talked over breakfast one day that I try joining the military again. We have a pretty good plan for the future as is, but none of my side of things is planned out. My husband has a career path set for the next… forever, and me? I’m just the retail-working Mom. Which isn’t good enough for me. Don’t misinterpret that, being a Wife and Mom absolutely take precedence over anything else in my life, and I have so much fun doing it. They are the foremost things in my heart and mind. BUT I still feel like I’m not achieving my full potential in life. And there it is again, the call. So after our brief talk, life started to get a little blurry again. The military thought was in my mind constantly, and finally my husband and I had a serious discussion about it. We talked about branches, options, the difficulty of being a dual military family, and still we felt excited and comfortable with the idea. We settled on the Navy, as I do want to end up in the medical field, and feel they work best with that, and the Marine Corps way of life we already lead.

So here I am, in the midst of another try at joining the military, this time with an amazingly supportive husband, and son to think about. Now before you get judge-y or concerned about the motherhood aspect of my life, know this: Our son has always, and WILL always be the light of our lives. He will ALWAYS come first. I understand that joining the military requires almost all of my time and focus, but in the long run, we both feel very sound with our decisions and the effects they may or may not have on him. The assumption that you can be a mother and wife OR in the military is ridiculous. I am multifaceted. I am capable of loving and caring for my son, and being an example to him that you CAN achieve your goals in life and care for the people you love at the same time. My being a wife and mother does not prevent my dreams, it fulfills them, and it encourages me to take on others. I won’t lie and say I am not a little worried about how he will handle Mommy not always being around, it would be silly not to be worried. But the relationship my husband and son have is stellar. If I had any inkling that our son did not come first in this decision, I wouldn’t be moving forward with it. I am so confident he will be loved and taken care of, that I feel amazing blessed and lucky to be able to try my hand at this path I am embarking on.

My marriage is probably the strongest it’s been to date. The excitement my husband has for my future plans, and the support he’s already shown make me love him more and more every day. We are not your average couple. Not by a long shot. We’re not even your average military couple. We are who we are, and right now, we’re damn amazing. You’ll notice I didn’t say perfect anywhere in there. We have our faults, and we know there will be challenges, but we’re ready to tackle them together as they come. I have no doubts in us, and that’s all that matters. I do not care what anyone else thinks about how a dual military relationship may work. Your misconceptions have no affect on how much we love each other, support each other, or rely on each other. We’re in this together, 110%, and will deal with the ups and downs like any other couple, just with a little more military influence. In other words, we’re super, super, moto, haha.

I have already spoken once with the recruiter here, briefly, about wanting to join the Navy as a Corpsman. The way the recruitment for the Navy goes is a lot different than the Marines, so we’re rolling with the information as we receive it. It is VERY difficult to become a female Corpsman right off the bat (lots of competition, the ladies alll want to be Navy Corpsmen). There’s still a chance I could qualify for it and there be an opening, after the ASVAB and MEPS, but we did have to discuss other options. I still have to take the test and go through the medical process, so right now, that’s where I’m at. I have a few other career plans in mind for the Navy, and will deal with that when the time comes. But for right now, I will need prayers for wisdom and guidance through this process. I am extremely excited and hopeful I make it into the Navy, but we also have a B Plan, should it not happen. My family has not taken it very well, though I am trying to come to terms with the fact that’s it’s because they love my son so much. They support me and love me, just not this decision. It’s been very hard for me to accept that, but it does not in anyway deter me from my dreams of supporting my nation, my family, and myself.

I know not all of my friends & family will understand this decision. I’m okay with that. I am doing what I feel I need to do, what I want to do, and my husband supports me. That’s all I need. Would it be nice to have some support through this process? Absolutely. But I want to make it clear that I don’t require the approval of anyone but my husband and son. We have an unconditional love, probably more than most, and we will go at this head on and hope for the best. We are making this decision together, we are informed and educated on almost all aspects of being dual military. We do not take this lightly.

So here’s to joining the Navy and being the person I knew I should be, 6 years ago. The fire has not gone out I assure you. If anything, my husband and son have fueled the flame, and no matter the outcome, will be there for me through the entire process. I hope I’ve made you understand a little bit of what I am going through, and you can comprehend that my love for my husband & son come first, but the military service and support for my nation are a focus we share. We are a military family already, we have the strength and perseverance to overcome and enjoy the dual military family title as well.

I’m going back to the recruiter today, updates will follow as things move forward.

Here goes…. everything.

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One of the products Influenster recently sent me to try out was the Rimmel Retro Glam Mascara. Now if you’ve seen photos of me, you can clearly see the eyeballs I’m workin’ with. My husband says I look anime sometimes, lovely man that he is. So normally I don’t bother doing anything special with make-up on the ol’ peepers. Enter new mascara. I didn’t think my eyes could get much bigger, but SHAZAM, there they were!

IMG_4637[1]And since I just started working two jobs at once, it was kind of amazing timing. So THANK YOU Influenster and Rimmel, for making this tired, working mama, look a little better every day. The mascara is a little on the thick side, so if I’m in zombie mode in the morning, occasionally it gets a little clumpy. But otherwise I’m a fan of this stuff, and I’ll probably stick with the brand. They’ve changed my cheapo mascara buying ways. You can buy the new Retro Glam Mascara this month, November 2013!

I even used this for my make-up rundown for the Marine Corps ball with my first try at false lashes and they looked even more amazing! Oh and I loved pairing the mascara with my favorite up-do (in the photo above), and got compliments at work on the look! I hadn’t actually looked in depth at Rimmel products before but now, next time I cruise the make-up aisles, it’ll be the first spot I stop.

I can’t wait to try out everything else in my Rose VoxBox!

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Isn’t that FANCY!?! I think I’m slowly getting the hang of this blog nonsense. Over the next week or so I’ll be freshening this page up a bit. My poor blog is feeling tired and misused so she’s getting a facelift.

If you don’t use Bloglovin, I HIGHLY recommend it. It’s insanely easy to use and I actually prefer it over the Reader tab here on WordPress. It’s also really helped with blog traffic, which is something I never thought I’d see.

So keep an eye out!
xoxo

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